Tuesday, November 17, 2009


The funniest thing happened the other day.

I decided to get my arse back to the gym (thank goodness! more on that in a moment) and I was talking with one of the trainers from the bootcamp. She said she was glad to see me back. After we were finished catching up this girl beside me on the elliptical asked: "Are you a vegetarian?"

I was like... vegan, yes?

She said she had read my blog and recognized me! Hehe... I didn't think anyone read this, ever! I guess she googled something about the bootcamp I was in and it came up. That kinda inspired me to get back to writing here, so... if you read this, and that was you at the gym - thanks! I will be posting my workouts and weightloss and stuff again. Perhaps adding some food photos and stuff. Yay :)

SO... on a personal note, things are going great for me. You'll notice in my last post that I was complaining about not knowing any other vegans or vegetarians, and about wanting to start a potluck or meetup. WELL... my how things have changed!

In that short of time, I've managed to move into a new place and all my roommates are either vegan or vegetarian. It is amazing - I'm so happy here! I've made so many new friends and I'm surrounded by awesome people who feel as passionately about animals as I do. They cook fantastic food which isn't so great for the weight loss, but I'm feeling especially inspired these days so I know that won't be too big of an obstacle.

Also... I have managed to get myself a very cute, very nice, wonderful vegan boyfriend <3

An awesome added bonus? He's in school for personal training, so he's going to kick my arse at the gym!! I will post about my weightloss and workouts here. I've already started, I've been the the gym 4 or 5 times recently. I haven't restarted WeightWatchers/portion control yet, so that's next on my list. I'm pretty happy about getting back into a proper workout routine though, and better yet - with an enthusiastic and motivating (and sexy!) workout partner :)

I gained back almost 12 lbs of the weight I lost over the summer, but I'm still at over 100lbs lost. I tend to do that though... lose 80, take a few months off and gain 10, lose 40, take a few months off and gain 12, etc etc... as long as it's going in the general downward direction I'm happy. It's a bit annoying but I know it won't take too long to re-lose that weight.

Anyways... I'm back! (I feel like I say that a lot? haha)

Once I have my workout routine down on paper from the boy, I will post it here. Also I will start posting my food. (Not today, as lunch consisted of vegan pizza and chocolate almond milk, haha) :/

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Changing Directions.

So I have decided to take this blog in a different direction. I don't really have a lot of friends or people I can talk to, so I'm going to start coming here when I need to vent. It's better than snuggling up to a bag of chips, or getting aquainted with a pint of soy ice-cream.

First of all, I do expect that a few of you may change your minds about being my follower on here, because you weren't planning on reading about a vegan whine about her vegan-problems. Well, I understand that, so I'm expecting it. I would appreciate limited negative feedback though, since this is really my only emotional outlet at this time. I don't talk about these feelings to my friends in real life because I fear sounding preachy or pushy or whatever.

Anyways, on with it I guess.

I'm having one of those I'm-sad-that-humans-are-so-horrible nights. I'm included in this, it's a blanket statement. I'm the only veg*an (for future this reads as "vegan or vegetarian") I know, and it's kinda disheartening that no one I surround myself with "gets" it.

I feel like I'M normal, and EVERYONE ELSE is weird! I remember one day I was in the school cafeteria minding my own business, eating my bean burrito. I looked over at the guy beside me: chicken strips. The girl across from me: hamburger. I looked one by one, all around the room, and I felt like I was in the twilight zone!!

It felt like a scene from "Invasion of the body snatchers." I was surrounded by zombies, all chowing down on corpses. It really struck me at THAT moment how detached we are - how people don't make the connection that what is on their plate was once ALIVE.

One thing that really bothers me is that I have to sensor myself.

I can't even complain to my friends when something is bothering me or smells gross, which sucks. I mean, if they walked into a room that smelled like fish, it would be okay for them to complain... but if I walk into a room that smells like hot dogs or chicken or something, it's totally considered pushy vegan-ness to express distaste.

I'm planning a vegan meetup in my city, and even if only a couple people show up, that's better than nothing. I really feel like I need to make more veg*n friends. I have made a lot of friends on the internet, but it's just not the same. I'd love to have someone over for dinner and not have them qualify "That was delicious!" with "It would be great with chicken on it!"

I am a better cook than most people I know, so thankfully my meat-eating friends are always eager to come for dinner... but it would be nice to cook vegan FOR a vegan, some day.

PHEW. That's better. Thank you for letting me vent, even if you don't understand, or agree. :)

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Ahh... life can return to normal now!

I haven't posted in a week or so because I've been REALLY sick, and moving. I helped my room mate move out, then moved my stuff in, then helped my new room mate move in. I've spent the last two days unpacking my bedroom... it's coming together!

I have been going to all my workouts but not really eating the meal plan. I only lost 1 lb at weigh in on Sunday, but the scale is already showing me down for this week. I drank wayyyy too much beer on our first night in the apartment, but I am dedicated to finishing this week off on the right foot :)

I'll be back to posting regularly :)

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Packing and Moving

Workout Length: 30 minutes
Calories Burned: 359 (55% fat)

I only did 30 minutes on the treadmill this morning because I earned 13 APs yesterday, and I have to pack and move a bunch of my stuff this afternoon. I don't want to exhaust myself! If I'm feeling up to it this evening I'll take a walk, but I figure 30 mins would be okay, for today :)

I did do interval walk/run again... 1 minute run, 1 minute walk, then after I was tired I started doing 1 minute run, 2 minute walk. It worked good! I will keep up with that this week and then next week start the 90 second run 90 second walk (which is basically week 1 of Couch to 5K.)

Monday, June 29, 2009

Hot Yoga

Workout Length: 1 hr 45 mins
Calories Burned: 1102 (55% fat)

Even though I suck at it, I love yoga. I especially love hot yoga. It's so intense... you're sweating so hard it's literally dripping off of you... you can see it rolling down your arms and your clothes become so soaked you may as well have just jumped into a lake.

I went a few times in the winter but I had a bad ankle and I hadn't been exercising regularly. I couldn't do many of the poses without using a wall to lean on or modifying them to work for me. I went back today after a month of working out 6 days per week and I was MUCH better! I am no where near good... not even close... but I was able to hold most poses for most of the duration, and at least I could hold my balance a little better.

Anyways... I have earned 13 APs today... time to eat dinner :)

Week 5 Begins :)

Workout Length: 75 minutes
Calories Burned: 840 (50% fat)

Alright! I'm starting my new week off on the right foot :)

I woke up this morning and felt motivated to work hard at the gym. For my cardio warm up I did the Couch to 5K interval running again - 60 seconds on, 60 seconds off... for 15 minutes. I was sweating by the end and it was really great! I was proud of myself for being able to jog for a full minute - last week I was having trouble with 45!

We are doing lots of weights and stuff. They've kicked it up a notch! Monday is Body Bar class, Wednesday is Spinning (good GAWD that's hard) and Friday is Kickboxing. He's also getting more vocal about keeping up to his pace and not breaking between sets.

Anways... I am stinky and cold and tired so I must shower and nap. I am back to counting points since I lost so much in the first two weeks and not as much in the last, and the biggest difference between the two times was not tracking points.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Month One Results!

TOTAL LOSS: 19 lbs

I actually lost 19 lbs in ONE month! Ohmygoodness. I feel like I could have done better because of last week when I gained 1, and I've had some drinks with friends a few times which will slow things down for sure... but 19 lbs? In ONE month? Wow.

The gym owner did my calipers (body fat testing) for the month. I lost an unbelievable amount of fat off my thighs, she actually had to retest 2 times to make sure she was doing it right!! haha.

My bodyfat percentage went down 4.1%. I lost 16.7 lbs of *actual* honest-to-goodness fat. I only lost .5 of lean mass which means I'm really doing things right -

16.7 fat
0.5 lean mass
1.8 water weight

I'm really proud of myself, and all things considered I think that is a great loss - drinks or not, stressful week or not - 19 lbs in one month is excellent :)

Louis CK - Getting Fat

Check out this standup bit:

Louis CK - Getting Fat

This video is not safe for work - lots of swearing and stuff. BUT it's hilarious so if you have a chance at home or whatever to watch, do.
He is my favourite comedian by far. His other stuff is better but I thought I'd post this one 'cause it makes me laugh - I know EXACTLY what he's talking about! LOL

I'm Alive...

I have been doing bootcamp, but nothing more and nothing less. In the first week I was working out twice per day, sticking to my points and super motivated. NOW I'm working out only when and for how long they tell me too, and although I'm eating what they ask me to eat I'm not tracking points. Last week I gained 1 lb. This week I'm just hoping to lose that 1 lb or STS.

My trainer is going to be so disappointed in me. I should be dropping 3-5 lbs per week; and although I lost 15 lbs in 15 days, I then went another 15 days with very little, if any progress. I get my calipers done today so at least we'll see if I lost inches. I do fell kinda bloated and water logged today though because I drank the last two nights in a row.

I keep on having drinks with friends because it's a fun and easy escape from my life. I have been hanging out with the new room mate a lot so we can get to know each other a bit before he moves in. I am pretty apprehensive now, though. I feel like I'm making a HUGE mistake. I think I need to go to counseling... :(

I'm really scared that leaving my husband was a bad choice. I do love him very, very much.

Overall I'm just feeling pretty down. I haven't been spending a lot of time on the computer. I will try to get back into the routine of posting my workouts and stuff. It's just hard when the enthusiasm isn't there!

One thing that is really bothering me is... my new room mate and his friends seem to be fat-phobic. I didn't realize that about him at first, but I've gone with him and his friends to play pool a few times and I am starting to pick up on it. A few nights ago I sat there and listened to them all talk about this really overweight woman in the corner of the pub. She was not dressed appropriately for her body type in my opinion, which is probably why she was attracting the negative attention. If she was sitting in the corner dressed normally they may not even have noticed her. Also, I hear them talk about women the go out on dates with and stuff and they talk about how she 'had a nice body' or 'was a bit bigger' or whatever... very focused on appearance instead of saying 'she was funny' or 'she seemed smart.' It REALLY got to me.

Anyways, it made me feel weird. I forget that I've lost so much weight and I'm not as fat as I used to be. It's been almost a year and a half since I reached 100lbs lost, I've been maintaining at this weight for a while. I am still overweight but I often forget that I am normal-overweight not wow-look-at-her overweight. :(

I feel very sad and confused and messed up about a lot of things. I don't really know where I'm going or what I'm doing, and what is important to me seems to be changing on a daily basis. I can't think :(

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

I'm working on it...

I went to the gym this morning and did 30 minutes on the elliptical. I'm about to head to my mom's house to do some housekeeping - which always makes me sweat. I'm going to eat well again today and try to get in as much water as possible! I think not drinking enough water was a big reason I didn't lose last week (apart from dropping my exercise amount).

When I got dressed this morning I had a hard time picking out a shirt. It's really warm out and I have this nice brown tanktop that I like. I *hate* my arms though. They are misproportionately larger than the rest of my upper body. I have skinny forearms and then really flabby upper arms. It bugs me :(

I looked in the mirror and decided that I'm just going to wear the shirt anyways. I need to start accepting myself and not judging myself. It's time to just be who I am, and take comfort that I'm actively changing things I don't like about myself.

I can feel the muscle under there... it's actually pretty big and hard. I have never really had a bicep before so that's cool! lol... but I still can't wait 'til the chub has melted off of my arms and you can actually SEE the muscle.

Alright... off to be productive. I have bootcamp in the morning and I'd like to get a good night sleep tonight so that I can give it 100% :)

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Tried to Work Out

Workout Length: 20 mins
Calories Burned: 284 (55% fat)

I dragged my butt to the gym this morning, but I only stayed 20 minutes. My mind is not in it with all this stuff happening in my personal life. I had 3 different people ask me where I was yesterday, and I kept hearing music that made me want to cry. I just want to curl up in a ball and not go to work, or the gym, or anywhere :(

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Missed Boot Camp

Yesterday I skipped my regular cardio routine and just went for a walk.
Today I didn't go to boot camp.

I have having problems at home, I shouldn't let that interfere with my bootcamp but I am kind of a mess right now. My trainer is going to KILL me for missing 2 days - and I drank some beer. He'll probably prescribe me 30,000 lunges. lol

My belly aches, my head aches, and my heart aches :(

I'm very sad.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Didn't Sleep.

Workout Length: 75 mins
Calories Burned: 628 (60% fat)

Oh man.

I have a lot on my mind these days, and I did not sleep at all last night. I went to bed really late - midnight - and then I was awake staring at the roof until 5 am, right before my alarm went off. I didn't even sleep 20 mins here 20 mins there - I just didn't sleep at all. Not a wink.

When I got up and got dressed for the gym, I didn't even feel that tired, but I knew I would be a lot weaker and stuff. We did another body bar workout, including legs, abs, and arms, and I was SO dead. I could barely do 10 reps above my head before feeling exhausted. I am usually much better than that.

Anyways I came home and took a nap, I'm a bit better now. I may go for a walk later since I didn't give my all at class this morning.

My trainer was just happy I showed up at all, after explaining to him I had no sleep. lol

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Week Two: Weigh In!

Week Two Summary (Monday June 8 - Sunday June 14, 2009)

Activity Points Earned: 44
Pounds Lost: 8

Wow, another 8 lbs lost!! That's 15 lbs in TWO weeks. *falls over*

I just started this bootcamp 15 days ago, and I've already had two compliments about looking thinner, and a compliment about looking healthier, and 15 lbs gone! My jeans are feeling less snug and I've got tons of energy.

The obstacle course this week was SO intense. WAY harder than last week. I don't even feel like describing it, I'm too worn out and it would take too long. haha

Friday, June 12, 2009

Bootcamp Blugh

Workout Length: 70 minutes
Calories Burned: 476 (60% fat)

Blugh. I'm just having a blah day. I went to my work out and we did a regular-level body bar class. I can't wait until I'm stronger with the upper body weights (such as lifting weights for 3 sets of 10 reps above my head) gets easier.

Today one of the guys on our team forgot his Bootcamp Book (which is BIG no no, it's the food journal for the trainer to go over your week). For this the whole group had to do 100 extra lunges! Ack... 50 per leg. That was haaaard. He said next time someone forgets their book its 60 per leg, then 70 per leg, and so on. Plllleeeeaaasee don't forget the books, people! lol

I'm not really feeling the food on my menu today, but THANKFULLY I work on the ferry where none of the cafeteria food is suitable for a vegan diet. I'll just enjoy my rice cakes, baked potato, green salad, and fruit... and pretend to LOVE it until I convince myself I love it. :)

Thursday, June 11, 2009

'Nother Evening Workout

Workout Length: 30 mins
Calories Burned: 490 (50% fat)

I was so pumped after running this morning that I went back to the gym to try it again. I was only able to go for 20 minutes before my ankle (which has been tender for 6 months) decided it was time to stop. Okay, so twice in one day is a little much? Note taken :)

I did 20 mins treadmill and 10 mins elliptical. I have to be back up and at the gym for 5:30. I'm hoping the scale says something nicer in the morning.

I saw two of the BL trainers at my work today, I got to chat with them a bit about how I'm excited about running and how I had a great loss, I'm feeling motivated etc etc... that was nice.

I've already prepared all of tomorrows meals, packed my lunch for work, and written down the points so I'll be totally OP again. 11 days 100% OP... I haven't even touched a single Flex or AP, I've had water every day, I'm on a roll! I'm so impressed with myself :D

Okay, bedtime!

I Rannnnn!

Workout Length: 60 minutes
Calories Burned: Bleep-Bleeeep! Grumble... I got to the gym and realized I forgot to put on my monitor. GRR!

I ran! I ran! I'm sooooo happy!

I got to the gym, and I did 20 minutes on the elliptical. I overheard one of the women on my BL team talking about how she ran on the treadmill. I remembered that I have that "Couch to 5K" podcast on my iPod, so I hopped on over to the treadmill and put it on.

I did week one of the podcast, so it's 90 second intervals of running, followed by 90 second intervals of brisk walking. I couldn't run for the whole 90 seconds, but I was doing between 45 and 60 each interval. I felt SO GOOD!! The endorphins were pumping and I was totally in the zone. By the end I must have looked hilarious because I was running with a big smile on my face, lol.

It was really hard, but it wasn't unbearable, and when it was over I felt better than I've ever felt after a workout in my life! I went home and bragged to everyone who would listen. LOL. I'm so proud and excited :)

I've decided that I love it and am actually going to follow the Couch to 5K program, and my goal is to finish the 8 week program over 10-12 weeks (it may take take me a bit more time than the average person) and hopefully by my birthday (Sept 22) I will be able to run 5K straight in 30 minutes. I don't really care about the time frame, I'd just be happy to be able to accomplish that!

On a not-s0-awesome note, I stepped on the scale this morning and I'm not showing a loss yet this week. Last week I was already showing down 4lbs by Thursday, so for me to not show anything yet is kinda freaking me out. I do feel like this week was a little messed up, with the salty popcorn and not working out 2x per day like I did last week. OH well. I just hope that I show even 1-3 lbs by Saturday... that'd be nice :)

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Evening Walk...

Workout Length: 50 mins
Calories Burned: 364 (60% fat)

I went for a walk around the harbour this evening. I had a bit of a melt-down after that near-binge this evening. It really effected me, I think because I haven't felt out of control around food in so long, so to feel like that (even if it was just over a bag of popcorn) really scared me and shook me up.

I talked on the phone to some people who are really close to me and it was nice to get my feelings off my chest. I am going to have a quick rinse in the shower and then hopefully fall asleep reasonably quickly.

Back up at 5:30 am for Cardio -

Woo Hoo! CAN'T WAIT!

Stopped Mid-Binge

I just had the most bizarre scenario.

I have been feeling snacky all day, and I've been unable to curb it. I had been sticking to my planned menu, but when I started feeling snacky I had some extra cucumber, baby carrots, snap peas... It didn't help.

I ended up remembering that I had a 1/2 bag of popcorn leftover from the movies last night. (Now remember: Movie popcorn w/no butter is 3x more points/calories than regular air-popped!) I thought "I'll have one handful, it's salty and that might fix my snacking feeling"

One, two, three handfuls later I was still chowing down. I almost felt like I couldn't actually stop if I tried! I haven't felt like that in a LONG time. Looooong time.

I ended up dropping the bag of popcorn in the sink and turning the tap on it. I know that sounds extreme, but if I didn't do that I know I would have devoured the whole bag.

Now I'm cooking the nice healthy dinner I had planned, and I don't think I did too much damage. I have to write it down, and my trainer won't be pleased, BUT I feel kinda proud of myself for coming to my senses mid-binge instead of feeling guilty post-binge.


Exhausted - Week 2 Day 3

Workout Length: 75 minutes
Calories Burned: Unknown :(

I forgot to start my heartrate watch today, not sure how that happened. I love seeing the calories burned so I can gauge how hard I'm working. Today would have been a great day to have it on too because MAN was it a difficult workout!!

I am so insanely exhausted right now. I am going back to bed for an hour before work. I don't know whether the work out was especially hard because I was tired, or if it's just getting harder 'cause they always want to kick our butts just beyond our capabilities.

We did a ton of arm exercises. I had 8lb weights, which isn't that heavy, but when you are doing 3 sets of 15 reps back to back with no break, it's tough.

We did bicep curls, alternating bicep curls, shoulder press, alternating shoulder press, tricep press, alternating tricep press, incline press, alternating incline press... 15 of each, ALL with no break in between... *falls over*

We sit across from a mirror and I could see myself grimacing and hear myself grunting by the end of it! lol

Then we did a bunch of ab and leg exercises, squats and crunches and the usual. I am really bad at using the balance ball. We have to sit on it and lift our feet off the ground and I can only do it for a few seconds at a time, at most. I have no core strength and no coordination! lol

I am super exhausted, I stayed up wayyyyy too late last night. I need to go back to sleep for an hour or I won't make it through my shift!!

(I'm still annoyed my watch didn't track the workout, but oh well)

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Ah, sleep, sweet sleep...

Workout Length: 45 Minutes
Calories Burned: 756 (45% fat)

I was up at 5 am yesterday, and I didn't take a nap in afternoon. I was having trouble keeping my eyes open by 10 pm last night. Today was my "late" day, I didn't have to be at the gym until 9 am! So I managed to get about 9.5 hours sleep. I feel great :)

My ankle feels a lot better today, too.

I think I exhausted myself yesterday. I burned nearly 2000 calories and earned 10 APs. Today I decided to go a little easier - instead of the 1hr long workout I just did 45 on the Elliptical. I may go for a light walk this evening, but won't feel guilty or disappointed if I don't.

Oh, just a note about music: I used to listen to really upbeat pop-type stuff when at the gym, because even though I didn't really like it it kept me moving. Well I decided to try music I *d0* like, that I listen to at home - like Pearl Jam - (I LOVE Pearl Jam) - and it really made my workout fly by! I had to skip by a few of the slower songs but I think I'll be passing on the pop music from now on.

Monday, June 8, 2009

Week Two Begins

Strength - Bootcamp
Workout Length: 75 minutes
Calories Burned: 871 cal (55% fat)

Cardio - Walk
Workout Length: 90 minutes
Calories Burned: 1021 (60% fat)

This morning's bootcamp seems so long ago... I usually post right after I get home, but I had some things to do this morning, and then went for a walk around the lake.

We did a similar work out to last week, but he upped the difficulty a bit -- shorter breaks, less often. We did the usual legs, abs, and arms work out. Using a body bar, we did lots of squats and whatever-they're-called presses where you lift the bar above your head. My arms are still quite weak but getting better!

My allergies are still driving me crazy, and my ankle is really sore. The roof of my mouth is itchy, my eyes are dry, and when I was walking around the lake my ankle felt really tender. I think I'll take it easy tonight... cook some dinner and watch a movie :)

I usually do separate posts for my bootcamp workouts and my cardio workouts, but I'm feeling lazy today (hah lazy? Tired maybe - I earned 10 APs before 1 pm! lol) so I just threw'em both in here.

Blugh. I have all the food in my house to make Thai Red Curry and Bulgur Chickpea Curry. The Bulgur one would probably be okay, but I can't really see my trainer approving of the Thai Red (I only have regular-fat coconut milk, not light). I want to use up the groceries I have. I think as long as I stay within my points, I should be okay. (That worked last week, I did my own thing and lost 7 lbs!)

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Week One: Weigh In!

Week One Summary (Monday June 1 - Sunday June 7, 2009)

Calories Burned: 6,487
Activity Points Earned: 44
Pounds Lost: 7

Oh my goodness!! *squeeeee*

I lost SEVEN pounds! Seven!

I'm so proud of myself. That is the most weight I have ever lost in one week. My very first week of WW'ers (nearly 3 years ago - yikes) resulted in 5.6... and that was my record to date - so this is AWESOME. Heck seven pounds is more than I usually lose in three weeks.

I am so happy. At this rate, I'll be back at my lowest weight in 3-4 weeks instead of the 3-4 months I had figured. :)


Group Workout Number Two

Workout Length: 70 minutes
Calories Burned: 1012 (50% fat)

Today was group workout number two. It was another obstacle course, but different. We warmed up with squats, lunges, push ups, crunches, Rinse, Repeat. :)

Station one: This reminded me of a police academy type deal... or like the course you see on X-Weighted. There was a mesh tunnel we had to crawl through, then get up and run through tires which were laying on the ground (classic obstacle course stuff). We then had to kick a soccer ball around 5 pylons, and at the end do 20 squats with a medicine ball above our heads.
RUN back to the start and do it again.

Station two: Same as last week, jog around the field three times with a medicine ball, this time we had to pass it to the person behind us, alternating left and right to work our sides (not sure the muscle names). When you are the back of the line you run up to the front of the line and pass it behind you.

Station three: Tug of war again, best 2 outta 3. This was followed by Boston Bulldog (think Red Rover). Our team had to link arms and not let the other team by... we had to tag them to get them out. This was harder than it sounds! Lots of running. lol

Station four: We split into two teams and had to race to get empty our bucket of tennis balls. Each ball had a exercise on it (squat kicks, crunches, jumping jacks, etc). We'd run back and our whole team would have to do this for 30 seconds before we could run to get the next ball. The team to empty their bucket first won.

Final Station: Dodgeball! All 7 trainers wandered around the perimeter of the field throwing balls into the center, while us BL participants ran around inside... once you got hit with a ball you were out. The last person standing won $100 worth of protein powder! Awesome.

Then we walked back up the gym. I feel great, but I was covered in hives from the grass. I'll have to remember to take a Benedryl next week! lol

Anyways, I should relax and take a shower, since I have to be up at 5am for WEEK TWO!


Friday, June 5, 2009

Grump Grump Grump.

I wanted to go for a walk this evening but I can't find anyone to go with me. Everyone is either drinking wine, going out for desserts, watching movies, or doing whatever else. I don't feel like going alone. It's already after 9:30 pm.

I think I'll feel bad if I don't go, but at the same time... relaxing does sound nice.

I don't want to boredom eat, and I don't want to sit around and do nothing. But I also don't feel like walking downtown by myself.

I don't know. I'm torn :(


Workout Length: 80 minutes
Calories Burned: 872

Today was bootcamp round 3. We were in the boxing ring, and did lots of legs and a little arms.
I started with 20 minutes of cardio, then went into the ring and we had to do 3 laps side-shuffling around.

We did 3 sets of push-ups...
10 second hold when down, 1 second hold when up x 4
then 10 regular ones.

Then using the boxing ring ropes we did leaning squats, which was actually really hard because there was 1 set up upper squats, 1 of lower, and 3 of full. My legs were burning after!

When we did lunges we had to hold them for 3 sets each..
3 sets of 30 second hold
3 sets of 45 second hold
3 sets of 60 second hold

I wish they went longer to shorter, cause by the end holding a lunge for 60 seconds is really hard! I did it though. My trainer kept shouting "don't focus on the pain! Focus on what you're doing today! Don't think about the burn!" But when he was saying that it made me think about it... I would have been better off in my own zone if he wasn't shouting about how it hurts! LOL

Ugh, we then did leg lifts. On all fours, lifting your back foot 10 times slowly, 10 times fast, then straighten your leg and lift it 10 slow/10 fast. (Then switch legs and repeat). We had to do this 3 times and it was A LOT harder than it sounds (or looks).

We did a few sets of arm exercises using the ring: pull ups (kinda like push ups, but pulling up your own body weight) and tricep dips.

After that we did a bunch of ab exercises. Crunches, etc. It was hard. haha. I have very weak abs, so I can do the first half no problem but by the end of the sets I'm pretty much just laying there with my hands behind my head... hahah (I still try, but I go no where, lol)

Anyways it was a pretty good work out. I still think Wednesday was the hardest!

I plan to walk around the lake tonight, or hit the gym, because tomorrow is rest-day and I'd like to get one last little workout in before that. :)

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Day 4

Workout Length: 68 minutes
Calories Burned: 1081 (45% fat)

I can't tell if my neurosis/slight OCD is a help or a hindrance! haha

I get on the treadmill and I think "I'll go for 30 minutes."
I lose track of time and it's been 35.

Well, I may as well go for 45, so I hop on the Elliptical.
At 45 minutes I've burned 930 calories.

Well, I may as well make it 1000!
I reach 1000 calories and I'm at 52 minutes "In Zone" (heartrate watch)
Hmm, may as well make it 60.

At 68 minutes and 1081 calories I decide this could go on forever... lol. It's not a nice round number but it's better that I step away from the gym equipment before I drive myself bonkers. haha!

I'm going back to bed for an hour... That worked for me yesterday :)

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Late Night Walk

Workout Length: 30 minutes
Calories Burned: 218 (60% fat)

It's so hot in my apartment I actually had to go for a walk to cool off. I was feeling a bit restless, too. Unfortunately now it's 11 pm and I have to wake up at 5:15 am. Blugh.

I am of to have a cool shower and then hopefully I'll fall asleep quickly.
I've already worked out 330 minutes in 3 days - awesome.

I'll post again in the a.m.


Butt Kicking Round Deux

Workout Length: 75 minutes
Calories Burned: 469 (60% fat)

I'm so tired :(
And I hurt all over :(

I got up at 5 and went to bootcamp. Holy crap, that was HARD. Leo kicked my butt so feirce, I am sore already. I have really weak arms and we did a lot of arm exercises with free weights and stuff. We also did some abs with the balance ball and I'm way weaker in my stomach than I even thought.

I remember going to yoga and occasionally we would do stretches that would actually make some people cry because they were so stress-relieving. I've teared up in yoga before, too. My eyes watered twice today, not because it was hard and I wanted to stop, but because there is such a huge release when stretching after exercising. It feels so good!

I asked my trainer about the protein thing. I'm supposed to be eating 5 oz of proteinous foods, not 5 oz of protein! hahah... that explains it. So a big piece of tofu, or a veggie burger or whatever will cut it. I don't need to be stuffing myself on protien bars and drinks and beans and whatnot.

Thank gawd.

Alright, I'm going back to bed for an hour...

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Evening Workout

Workout Length: 35 minutes
Calories Burned: 405

I'm having trouble eating all my points again today. It's very weird, I've never had a problem before (in fact, I usually ate a couple flex points each day, too). I figured that all the extra exercise would actually make me more hungry more often... but that's not the case. I may have to cut the protein drinks to evenings only so I have an appetite in the day!

I did another work out this evening. I didn't want to over do it since I already did 1 hour this morning and have to be back for an hour and a half tomorrow morning. I did 10 minutes on the bike, 10 minutes on the stairmaster, and 15 minutes on the treadmill.

It was kinda nice because I ran into one of the Biggest Loser trainers, and she was like "Oh, weren't you already here this morning?" I said Yep... She was really impressed, I get the impression I'm the only one so far who has been working out twice per day because she was really surprised. haha

I bought a blender to start making smoothies... yum yum! I have some vega powder so I'm going to make a yummy fruit smoothie for breakfast tomorrow. Yay :)

I Lurve the Elliptical

Workout Length: 65 minutes
Calories Burned: 1089

I forgot how much I love the elliptical! When I was going to the gym religiously a few years ago, I loved the elliptical trainer. It was my favourite machine. I got on one today for the first time in months and the romance was rekindled...

Last night I woke up in the middle of the night and had to pee but I was so achy and so sore that I could barely roll out of bed. While I was in there I took two extra strength Tylenol. I never take painkillers - maybe once or twice per year - so that says a lot about how sore I was. I woke up feeling a bit better, the sleep really helped.

I did 60 minutes on the elliptical, 5 minute cool down, and I wanted to keep going but decided instead that I'll get some more exercise this evening. An hour at a time is plenty! Later this evening I'll walk outdoors.

I haven't been following The Biggest Loser meal plan very closely. Instead I'm continuing to do Weight Watchers. BL follows the same structure I do: Breakfast, Snack, Lunch, Snack, Dinner, Snack. They have meat at ever dinner so I've been doing my own vegan WW friendly dinners instead... still ensuring I get the carbs and protein that they want me to. They have some good ideas for snacks, which I have actually been following because it's a nice break from the regular baby-carrots-and-apples rut I've been in.

Oh and... I weighed myself this morning and I was down 4 lbs... AWESOME... 4 lbs in 3 days? wow. I will check myself every 3-4 days just to make sure I'm on track... this IS a competition after all!

Monday, June 1, 2009

Not Hungry

I found it really hard to eat all my points today, and that NEVER happens to me. Ever.
I am thinking maybe the vegan protein powder is keeping me full so I'm not really craving food. I could barely finish my dinner, but I forced myself to because I knew I couldn't be under my points - especially with all the exercise I'm doing.
I'm really sore and I'm really glad they partnered us up with someone because if I didn't have someone meeting me at the gym in the morning I'd TOTALLY just skip out! haha.

I went for a walk this evening, too... It wasn't much but it earned me a the few extra activity points I wanted. That was 10 today. I'm going to aim for 10 on my days off, and 7 on workdays.

Groan... Moan...

I'm so sore. I feel like I'm going to die.

That is all.

Too Early to be Alive....

Workout Length: 1 hr 20 min
Calories Burned: 1050

I slept terribly last night. I tried to go to bed at 11:00, but didn't end up falling asleep until 1 am. I remember looking at the clock at 12:40, still wide awake, and then a bit after that I finally drifted off. I woke up three or four times during the night, when finally the alarm went off at 4:50 am.

To state the obvious: that's really early.

I threw on my gym clothes and rushed to the gym. We had decided that anyone who is late has to do 30 pushups, haha! I got there at 5:29:55! Thank goodness.

I did 20 minutes on the treadmill... speed 3.5 incline 3-8. I'd have gone longer but that was just our warm up. I considered hopping back on after our workout but decided I'll save my energy and exercise again this evening!


Squats with vertical pole - 10 slow, 10 fast, 10 second hold. (3 sets)
Stiff leg deadlift with bent over row - 10 reps each, (3 sets)
Barbell curls with shoulder press - 21 reps/10 reps (3 sets)
Vertical bar french press w/squats - 10 reps each (3 sets)
Wall push ups - 20 reps (3 sets)
Lunges with vertical bar, knee raises - 10 reps each (3 sets)

On the mat - 10 reps and 3 sets each

Basic Crunches
Crunches w/one knee up
Crunches w/ one knee in/out

Switch legs and do it again

Crunches w/both knees up
Upper and lower abs together
Basic Crunches

10 minute full body stretch

I was home and showered and totally finished by 7:30 am. It's weird this early in the morning... I can't call anyone to chat, I can't run my errands... I'm almost thinking I may go back to bed! haha. I plan to do some more cardio this evening, probably just light though - like a walk around the harbour or something.

I am going to have trouble spreading my points over the course of the day, considering it's 9 am and I've already had breakfast and a snack! I'll have to pick up tons of veggies so that I've got 0 point snacks throughout the day.

I may write more later... I'm in desperate need of a nap.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Group Workout Numero Uno!!

Workout Length: 1 h 17 mins
Calories Burned: 1203 (45% fat)

(I actually started the watch about 10 minutes late, so it's actually more than that)

That was awesome, and the endorphins have totally kicked in. I feel amazing!

We met with our teams, we met with our trainer. I'm really excited about my team, they seem pretty motivated and most of us have lots of weight to lose. Also, we have one guy who is SUPER high energy. During our work outs he kept pep-talking us... "C'mon! Keep it up! Let's go!" It was really helpful. I felt really enthusiastic and did really well on the work out. Awesome :)

Our first group workout:

Walk to a park, about 10 minutes away.
As a group, we did 3 sets of squats, crunches, push ups, and leg lifts.

Then we split into our teams and did an obstacle course:

Station One: Soccer. We had to line up and kick the ball at the goal, and everyone on the team had to score two goals before we could move on. When done we ran to the back of the line. After that we split in half and played a game against each other. It was really intense, I forgot how much running is involved in soccer! I didn't score a goal, but I did run pretty much non-stop. My heart rate was up the whole time and I was sweating like crazy! One woman on our team pulled a muscle, which is unfortunate.

Station Two: We had to walk briskly around the field three times with a balance ball held up over our heads. This was harder than it sounds... keeping your arms up like that is hard work! One girl actually fell over and hyperventalated, so we took a little break while she gathered herself. It was intense.

Station Three: Tug of war. My team won!

Station Four: We had to do 10 push ups, run across the field, do 10 more push ups, and run back.... three times. I came in second on my team! I am in better shape than I thought. hahah

Station Five: Same sort of deal as four, but different. We take turns running over to a tub full of tennis balls, pick one up and ran back. Our team then had to perform what ever the ball had written on it... "push ups" or "squats" or "crunches" or whatever. It was great.

Then we did the 10 minute walk back to the gym.

I was sweating like crazy but loved every single second of it! My sore ankle didn't give me any trouble, and I've been in such a great mood all night! I'm actually EXCITED for tomorrow. The thought of waking up at 5am almost deterred me from joining, but now I can't wait for morning!

I came home and ate quite a bit. I ate some mixed nuts, a granola bar, a couscous stuffed pepper, some cucumber and some watermelon. I also tried one of the protein drinks I bought this afternoon. It isn't terrible. It's certainly not amazing tasting, but it's bearable. I think I'll have one each morning and each evening... that's 40g of protein of 140 required for the program. I've found a few mock-meats hiding in the back of my freezer that are worth 20-30g of protein per serving. Not shabby! I don't really like eating processed foods, but if I maintain an otherwise whole-food diet, a few mock-meats here and there will be okay.

I'm excited about tomorrow. I'll log my food, my calories burned, etc... and post when I get home :)

T - 45 Minutes!

Oh My Flying Spaghetti Monster.

I just got home from the mall... spent $200 on a new pair of gym shoes and a big-arse container of Vegan protein powder. My trainer better be proud!

I'm posting a blog instead of getting ready.... oops. My first session starts in 40 minutes! My ankle has been really sore and bothering me today, but I can't decide if it's just psychosomatic. It is a bit sore every day, so it could be the same soreness magnified by my apprehension!

I tried to keep hydrated today, and I had a bean burrito for lunch so hopefully I'll survive the first workout without dropping dead.

Wish me luck!

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Starting Stats

BODY WEIGHT: 280.5 lbs
BODY FAT: 33.9 %
LBS OF BODY FAT: 95.3 lbs
LEAN MASS: 185.2

Since the goal is to keep 25-30 lbs of body fat, the total body fat I need to lose is 65.3 lbs. Of course I will lose water, and a tiny bit of lean mass. My personal goal weight is 177.5 lbs, the goal weight my trainer has set for me is 170 lbs. Honestly, I'll be happy with anything under 200!

CHEST: 44.75"
WAIST: 47"
HIPS: 57"
ARMS: 17.75"
LEGS: 33"
CALVES: 18.75"

Goodbye Beer

Okay so... I've officially signed my flab away.

I spent the greater part of the day pining over the fact that:

a) I won't be able to drink alcohol during warm summer months;

b) I have to drag my sorry arse out of bed at 5 am 3x per week;

c) No more extravagant veggie feasts that I've been cooking and enjoying lately!

I pull up to the gym. I walk in and meet the manager. We sit down in her office, where all the walls are plastered with photographs of competitive bodybuilders complete with spray tans and zillion-pack abs. I feel like I'm possibly the most gelatinous person to ever set foot in that office.

For the sake of full disclosure, I must admit I am typing this blog while eating a bowl of butterscotch swirl soy ice-cream.

We talked about my diet, and she was very vocally against vegetarianism (but also uneducated about the subject so it's not any realistic vote against it). She kept saying "WHY?" "But, Whyyyyy?" haha. She asked if I was one of those 'cute little lambs' kind of people. I said "Uhh... If you mean do I do it for ethical reasons, then yes, I am one of those cute little lamb people."

Hehehe. Whatever, I don't mind that she was ignorant about the subject. She's just concerned I won't meet the protein requirements for such an intense program, but I will. It's not hard to consume enough protein as a vegetarian, even when working out. A 1/2 block of tofu has 26 grams of protein. 1/4 cup of seitan has 22 grams. I veggie burger has 15 grams. It won't be hard.

We did a weigh, measure, and body fat analysis. We talked about my expectations, which apparently were quite low. I said I'd be happy losing 30 lbs in 12 weeks... her reply was "Pfffft! You'll lose at LEAST 30. I'd say 50 or 60 - Eaaaasy."


I actually have a lot less weight to lose than I initially thought. She figures I'd be fit at around 170 lbs, which I agree with. (I'm kinda tall, and my frame isn't small). Apparently I only have abut 65 lbs of actual fat to lose, the rest is either lean mass or water. Awesome.

I will make another post with the actual statistics in it, and then update the progress from there.

Tomorrow is our first day. We meet at 5:00 pm. I'm supposed to show up in something semi-unflattering for "before" photos. I meet my team members, my trainer, go over the meal plan, and do our first work out! I'm scared, since her encouragement for the workout was "hopefully you don't puke!"

Yeah. Hopefully...

Friday, May 29, 2009

Be Afraid... Be Very Afraid!

Ahhhhhh! Ack!
I'm SO excited. EEE!

Okay, This was entirely spur of the moment, but I'm doing it and I'm SO excited!

I was out for my evening walk and I saw a poster for "Biggest Loser Nanaimo." I freaked and whipped out my cell phone and called the gym, only to find out that the registration date had already passed.

I ended up pleading with the manager and he said that it starts SUNDAY... so if I can fill out all the paperwork and initial weigh-in stuff before Sunday, I'm allowed in!!

I practically ran home and figured out my funds and schedule, and it totally works. I will have to be a bit frugal this summer, butttt I figure it's worth it. Plus I won't have time to spend my money, I'll be working out too much! haha

The Program:

There are 40 participants. We're broken into teams, with trainers, just like on the show. We have team training sessions 3x per week, and then 2x per week we are with an assigned partner. Each Sunday we meet at the gym and do an official WI!!

There is a diet plan laid out (I told her I'm vegetarian-nearing-vegan and she said we'll work with that) and our personal trainers will be monitoring our food logs, etc.

It's pretty expensive but I'm really excited about it. I checked the website and it's actually "Biggest Loser" brand name, not just a knock off... I assume the gym and trainers had to actually learn the BL program to be able to use it's name.


The prize (which really, I'm just doing it for the weight loss, the prize would be sweet though) is a 1 year membership at the gym, 1 year of weekly personal trainer sessions, and a cash prize.

I. Can't. Wait.