So I have decided to take this blog in a different direction. I don't really have a lot of friends or people I can talk to, so I'm going to start coming here when I need to vent. It's better than snuggling up to a bag of chips, or getting aquainted with a pint of soy ice-cream.
First of all, I do expect that a few of you may change your minds about being my follower on here, because you weren't planning on reading about a vegan whine about her vegan-problems. Well, I understand that, so I'm expecting it. I would appreciate limited negative feedback though, since this is really my only emotional outlet at this time. I don't talk about these feelings to my friends in real life because I fear sounding preachy or pushy or whatever.
Anyways, on with it I guess.
I'm having one of those I'm-sad-that-humans-are-so-horrible nights. I'm included in this, it's a blanket statement. I'm the only veg*an (for future this reads as "vegan or vegetarian") I know, and it's kinda disheartening that no one I surround myself with "gets" it.
I feel like I'M normal, and EVERYONE ELSE is weird! I remember one day I was in the school cafeteria minding my own business, eating my bean burrito. I looked over at the guy beside me: chicken strips. The girl across from me: hamburger. I looked one by one, all around the room, and I felt like I was in the twilight zone!!
It felt like a scene from "Invasion of the body snatchers." I was surrounded by zombies, all chowing down on corpses. It really struck me at THAT moment how detached we are - how people don't make the connection that what is on their plate was once ALIVE.
One thing that really bothers me is that I have to sensor myself.
I can't even complain to my friends when something is bothering me or smells gross, which sucks. I mean, if they walked into a room that smelled like fish, it would be okay for them to complain... but if I walk into a room that smells like hot dogs or chicken or something, it's totally considered pushy vegan-ness to express distaste.
I'm planning a vegan meetup in my city, and even if only a couple people show up, that's better than nothing. I really feel like I need to make more veg*n friends. I have made a lot of friends on the internet, but it's just not the same. I'd love to have someone over for dinner and not have them qualify "That was delicious!" with "It would be great with chicken on it!"
I am a better cook than most people I know, so thankfully my meat-eating friends are always eager to come for dinner... but it would be nice to cook vegan FOR a vegan, some day.
PHEW. That's better. Thank you for letting me vent, even if you don't understand, or agree. :)