But I don't WANNA!!

*stomp stomp* HA-RUMPH!

I don't WANT to go to the gym. I want to lay around all night eating chocolate and cuddling my boyfriend. Wahhhhh!!!

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Okay, so that was a bit dramatic. But I really don't feel like going. Alas, I am off to the gym in about 5 minutes, dragging my sorry (and SORE) arse behind me.

Harrumph.

One mistake per day?

I seem to be getting into this strange habit of making a mistake each day with my meal plan or exercise. I'll be totally, 100% on plan, things will be going fabulously - and then OOPS! I ate a cookie. Or OOPS, Starbucks accidentally gave me something sugary, instead of the plain tea I ordered... and I drink it anyways.

I'm just wondering why I allow myself those little blips. It's weird, I don't feel THAT bad about them, but it makes me wonder if having a PERFECT day is even possible.

Today I wanted to get 40 minutes of cardio, but the fire alarm went off at the gym and it rang and rang forever... totally taking me out of my zone. I cut out 15 minutes early. YES I walked around the mall for 2 hours afterwards, but it's not the same.

I might look at tomorrow or Thursday and REALLY put the effort in to make it 100% perfect. It is hard when I have all kinds of delicious vegan treats laying about :)

I went shopping for new work/teaching pants (teaching pants? lol) today, and both pairs I bought were a size 18. The fit is really nice & flattering. They will fit great for my upcoming practicum, and will likely be a bit baggy for the practicum after that - if all goes according to plan. Based on that I tried to buy them nice and snug and not too expensive. I'm hoping I don't have to get another pair until the bootcamp is over (although I can't be TOO peeved if I do - being smaller would be nice!)

Grump Grump Grump.

I wanted to go for a walk this evening but I can't find anyone to go with me. Everyone is either drinking wine, going out for desserts, watching movies, or doing whatever else. I don't feel like going alone. It's already after 9:30 pm.

I think I'll feel bad if I don't go, but at the same time... relaxing does sound nice.

I don't want to boredom eat, and I don't want to sit around and do nothing. But I also don't feel like walking downtown by myself.

I don't know. I'm torn :(

T - 45 Minutes!

Oh My Flying Spaghetti Monster.

I just got home from the mall... spent $200 on a new pair of gym shoes and a big-arse container of Vegan protein powder. My trainer better be proud!

I'm posting a blog instead of getting ready.... oops. My first session starts in 40 minutes! My ankle has been really sore and bothering me today, but I can't decide if it's just psychosomatic. It is a bit sore every day, so it could be the same soreness magnified by my apprehension!

I tried to keep hydrated today, and I had a bean burrito for lunch so hopefully I'll survive the first workout without dropping dead.

Wish me luck!